One of my earliest memories was from my pram: above me I could see a golden mortar & pestle [the Pharmacy sign outside the Chemist shop]. I wondered why a jar of sweeties should have been raised so high and kept so well out of my reach?
I have been taking an antidepressant for more than 20 years. I am dependent on this antidepressant and have had to live with severe withdrawal symptoms. I was started on this antidepressant for ‘Generalised Anxiety Disorder’ in 1998 amidst the Pharma-sponsored “Defeat Depression Campaign”.
At the time of making ‘PRAM’ [February 2020] nearly 1 in 5 Scots are taking an antidepressant, yet Scotland’s suicide rate, rather than dropping, has risen [official figures]. The steepest rise in antidepressant prescribing has been in children and young adults [official figures]. Beverley Thorpe, in the following presentation, asks us to “Remember Amy”:
I have recently retired as a doctor. I was an NHS Psychiatrist for over 25 years. The mortar & pestle pharmacy sign (one of my earliest memories and seen from my pram) has come to represent for me a pestling of the Hippocratic oath by a world that is market driven, aided and abetted by, existential fear.
It is robustly argued that prescribed medications are not available like sweets. However nearly 1 in 5 Scots are taking an antidepressant each day, and this is a lot. It is my understanding that this figure meets the scientific criteria for “mass prescribing”.
The Medical Profession, has for decades, resisted believing the experience of those taking antidepressants, unless that experience is considered to be generally positive. The former President of the Royal College of Psychiatrists continues to argue that those who have faced (and indeed may continue to face) serious adverse consequences of prescribed psychiatric drugs should be labelled as “pill-shamers”. It is my view that this is a most unhelpful and unscientific binary that hinders learning.
Scientists should listen to all experience and be open to learn from all.
A vital note: there is a dearth of long-term evidence to base the prescribing of most psychiatric drugs:
- “EBM” studies rarely extend beyond 12 weeks
- “EBM” studies are universally funded by Industry, where the data is not open to all
- “EBM” studies are generally “ghost written”
In 2004, after struggling to very gradually withdraw from my antidepressant over a 12 month period, I developed a range of physical and mental symptoms including akathisia and suicidality. I ultimately ended up in a Psychiatric hospital, where had a steel curtain rail not broken, I would have died by suicide.
It took me two years to recover and, after being tried on a range of psychiatric drugs, was eventually put back on my original antidepressant. I am now too fearful to try and stop this drug [as prescribed], even if I could taper over many years. You see, I cannot forget what I put my young family, my dear wife and (then) two wee children, through. It was absolute hell for them. I was also in hell.
A few years after this episode I attended a Medical Education Event in Aberdeen on depression and its pharmacological management. It was organised and accredited by the Royal College of Psychiatrists. One of the speakers was an International expert and a “key” Scottish Government advisor. At this educational meeting, in an appeal that was a tour-de-force, this opinion leader asked his medical audience to consider what harm might the prescribing of psychotropics do? Showing a red-topped newspaper, with a newsprint capitalised ‘SUICIDE’ and an image of antidepressant pills beneath, he received clapping-cheers. The audience, a crowd of psychiatrists, then rised and clapped.
Watery of eye,I quietly left the lecture hall.
This film provides a Timeline of Missed Opportunities in Suicide Prevention over the last two decades [in NHS England]:
Please Note: My films inevitably reflect the experience of their maker. In this I intend to make the point that science too must remember the complexity of human life.
The film ‘PRAM’ is dedicated to Antony Schofield who took his life last year as he could no longer bear the akathisia that was a direct consequence of the antidepressant that he was taking and that he had been dependent on for over 20 years. I shared the news of the tragic loss of Antony with the current President of the Royal College of psychiatrists but had no reply.
Music credit for ‘PRAM’: Bluebell, Cockleshell, 123 by King Cresote “From Scotland with Love” [I do not have copyright]
Film credit for ‘PRAM’: Moving Film Archive, Scotland [I do not have copyright]
Borrowed words for ‘PRAM’: – quotations from the novels of Charles Dickens, Evelyn Waugh, Annalena MacAfee and Anton Chekhov.